a touch-and-go update

updates for these few weeks.

alhamdulillah. get over and done with pmr. thank you Allah for everything. although it was rather not a good start, i mean a few days before the exam commenced. was so hectic. felt like collapsing. thank you Allah for the strength. almost (but actually did) cried due to stressful days i had at school. got too emotional. pms, i guess. let bygone be bygone. tak mau ingat dah. 

my parents went to menunaikan haji. was feeling sad and was about to cry but i managed to not to cry. i didnt want them to see me crying over their leave. beloved mak and bah, semoga mendapat haji yang mabrur. worrying over my dad's health. he's doing not that well due to his asthmatic problem. oh Allah, grant him good health, please. cant wait for them to be home.

so, i celebrated hari raya qurban without my family around. my granny was in raub. my sister in kedah with her in-laws. but yes, i am grateful to have my in-laws by my side.  

today, am still on hols. going to start working tomorrow. arghh, how i wish the hols is longer. 

hoping for a good day tomorrow. as have been through not-so-good days lately. thank God there will be no p&p tomorrow that we have our qurban program. 

thanks Allah for all the good things. 

meroyan

tanpa sedar, i dah meroyan kat my students this noon. sebab dieorang boleh melepak kat pondok sedangkan they knew they got class at that time. my class. 

they deliberately did that supaya they came in late. they looovvee to do that. tawaf satu sekolah dulu sebelum masuk kelas. have no idea what the point of doing that. 

i was shouting my heart out. dah lama tak buat camtu. terkeluar suara jantan. tak pikir dah muka macam serigala mase tu. sebab i reached my boiling point.

what made me lost my temper was they are form 3 students. yes, pmr candidates. and pmr is just around the corner. five days je lagi. kenape lah mereka tak sedar-sedar.

sume ni kan salah cikgu kan. definitely. punca pelajar ponteng is sikap guru. choiiii.

sistem pengurusan sekolah

just finished filling in my personal details in the new sistem pengurusan sekolah. a new system - an addition to our sufferings that we teachers already have.

this new system is a replacement for the systems - e-mis, e-operasi and opmen. and for class teachers, this is the new apdm ( which has only been established in less than four years a ago).

what's worst is we have to fill in all or our personal details all over again. argh. what a stressful job to do. why dont they just import the information from the old systems. just dont get it why we have to do the same thing over and over and over and over again. for your information, we have plenty of work to be done.

bottom line, saya yang menurut perintah. 

gudnite.

come back

alhamdulillah. recovered my blog. how i miss my mariposa. it's been ages since i last posted an entry. 

no post at all in 2012. well, guess i was a busy bee last year. was assigned as the secretary for PMR examination., the answer for my hectic life. 

but deep inside, i know i miss blogging. and yes, here i am. blogging again.

a lot of things happened in 2012. but most of all, that made me a happy king was the birth of my pretty cousin arissa in november. it was the most amazing thing happened in my life last year. she's a little angel sent by God from heaven. 

cute, isn't it? that's her. my current obsession. hurm and i'm still praying (hard) for my own angel to be born.

shall stop now. adios.

SPP interview

alhamdulillah. i dah lulus interview SPP untuk pelantikan ke jawatan tetap. lega sangat.

on that morning, pukul 4 pagi i dah terjaga. malam tu dah memang tak tido lena. bangun2 je terus sakit perut. takut punye pasal.

i memang ade masalah anxiety disorder. nervous gile nak interview. study macam nak separuh gile. last2 satu pun tak ditanya hehe.

NKRA, PIPP, NPE, RMK-10. sumenye i study. tapi tak ditanya pon.

2 jam jugak kat dalam bilik interview tu. tapi sebab sekali masuk 6 orang, so kurang la ckit nervous tu. lagipun panel tu suke sharing. die pun banyak cakap. tadah jela.

alhamdulillah sumenye berjalan lancar.

at the end of the interview, sebelum he let us out, die kasitau die tidak menggagalkan sesiapa. meaning sume lulus lah. alhamdulillah.

thank you Allah.

jangan pernah berubah

cintaku padamu begitu besar
namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan

it's holiday, yay

alhamdulillah. pejam celik pejam celik, dah abes first term of schooling. and dah 4 months i menjadi seorang cekgu (bertauliah). how time flies. phew. and what's more exciting is....it's school holiday. how come, cekgu yang excited terlebih when holiday comes.

so far, although baru 4 months jadi cekgu, alhamdulillah rasenye macam banyak sangat pengalaman yang dah ditimba. the good side of heavy workload that i have despite the other side of it.

and surprisingly, i teach science better than English. seriously, walaupun i rase i ajar science macam tunggang-langgang sikit, yelah i opsyen English not science, tapi results for science untuk mid-year exam baru-baru ni agak memberangsangkan. one student got A for science but none for English. what say you?

but i look at it from a different point of view. there are ample factors yang mempengaruhi results for English. the students' background and environment are effing vital factors that influence their English. exposure is very little. it is seriously a killer subject. more time needed, i believe.

alrite, alrite. holiday means holiday. nothing about work should be mentioned here (supposedly). happy holidays everyone. enjoy.

1st anniversary

thank you Allah. what a beautiful year You have granted us with. i'm so blessed.

thank you for a beautiful year. may You grant us with more beautiful years. and may the beauty last forever.

happy first anniversary to us. thank you abang for those awesome days together. hope to spend my lifetime with you, now and thereafter. insyaAllah.

pawana

Pawana ku hadir kini

Mendekati batas usang
Ku terasa salju cinta lalu
Dalam titis-titis hujan
Bagaimana aku harus menghalusi jiwa
Untuk terus idup dalam nafas suci
Terpaksa aku terbang jauh lagi

Terkadang aku jatuh dan menangis
Terkadang aku rebah tak daya berdiri
Ku gentas bunga di perantauan
Membalut luka hati
Melindungiku dari resah yang menghujan

Pawana ku hadir kini
Mendekati batas usang
Ku terasa salju cinta lalu
Dalam titis-titis hujan
Bagaimana aku harus menghalusi jiwa
Untuk terus idup dalam nafas suci
Terpaksa aku terbang jauh lagi

Terkadang aku jatuh dan menangis
Terkadang aku rebah tak daya berdiri
Ku gentas bunga di perantauan
Membalut calar luka hati
Melindungku dari resah yang menghujan

Di saat pilu lara itu kasih…
Aku gagahi melangkah
Selagi dirahmati
Aku mengorak harapan

Terkadang aku jatuh dan menangis
Terkadang aku rebah tak daya berdiri
Ku gentas bunga di perantauan
Membalut calar luka hati
Melindungi dari resah yang menghujan

u deserve it

yes. you deserve it, indeed. you are no 1, chong wei. i am extremely excited over our no 1 badminton player, dato' lee chong wei's win to china's player lin dan last nite. it was awesome. a big congrats to you, chong wei. you have made us proud.

this is especially sebab chong wei dan lin dan da macam musuh tradisi. sapa yang lagi hebat sebenarnye? both of them have their own strengths and weaknesses, i guess. but last night's match was definitely tough, challenging. dua-dua player pon sama hebat.

and i had the chance to watch the match at a restaurant together with other people, yang i sendiri pun tak kenal. tapi sangat-sangat happening. meriah sangat. bile chong wei dapat point, sume orang bersorak and clapped their hands. and i ter-over la plak when i just cant help myself from shouting. it was cool, though. but, how would it be like bila orang-orang lain kat kedai tu tahu yang menjerit tu ialah seorang cikgu. hehe.

btw, i was overwhelmed dengan kemenangan chong wei. thank you chong wei for bringing our country's name to the world stage. thank you for playing such well. well done.